Wednesday, June 4, 2014
I am fibromyalgia
I know I snuck up on you without your knowing so now that you're stuck with me I thought I'd introduce myself.
Hi, I'm fibromyalgia.
I'm invisible. No one can see me, no one else can feel me, only you can feel my strength and power. I take your energy from you, I cause your muscles to ache, I make you so tired all you want to do is sleep and then I prevent you from sleeping. I'm a sneaky illness, I crept towards you stealthy and silent so you wouldn't know I was coming. No one knows why I come or why I stay and doctors can't figure out what to do with me. Because I'm so sneaky not even researchers can nail down where I come from. They try so hard to study me to find where I come from but I'm good at hiding. I'm so good at hiding I even have doctors convinced that I'm not there, but they just don't know where to look for me. You will have to go from doctor to doctor looking for one who is even acknowledges my existence.
I like to mess with you. Some days I will almost disappear and I'll let you live some of your life. I'll let you feel almost normal and I'll get your hopes up that you can have some fun, but when you least expect it I will come roaring back to remind you that I never leave. You can't pretend you're normal and wish me away, I will always stay with you. You can take medication, you can exercise more, you can change your eating habits and I may diminish, but I will never go. I am fibromyalgia.
I am fibromyalgia and I am strong, sometimes I'm stronger than you. Sometimes I will fight so hard that you will feel beaten. I'll make it so you don't know how to go on. I'll make you feel worthless and unimportant. I'll make pain the only thing you can think about. I will dominate every portion of your life and I will never let go.
Great piece! Well done.
ReplyDeleteHi, I already left one post but Google doesn't seem to want to work for me today, so here it is again. This is a great piece I just found this blog and this really describes how fibromyalgia sneaks into your life and takes it over. You deserve an award for this one!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your comment. I didn't think anything about this blog post, but I happened to be looking for something to submit to a fibro magazine when I got your comment. It lead to me rereading this post and realizing how much I liked it, so I submitted it. I'm so glad you brought my attention back to this post!
DeleteSo true. So true.
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